l got another dreaded call and this time, they said the cancer is very aggressive. It is not the normal type they had to give medications but that l needed chemotherapy for four months and then six weeks of radiation everyday making thirty-two treatments. The doctors did not even understand why somebody so young, with no history of cancer in your family, you are healthy, you are not overweight, they didn’t know where this was coming from.

I broke down and cried, l didn’t know what was going on. I put up a picture of me: l lost my hair, l lost weight, my finger nails became black and things just began to change all around. I just did not understand what was going on. I had to do radiation everyday for thirty-two treatments.

The chemotherapy was one of the hardest parts because it messes with your mind. I couldn’t understand why this was happening to me. I have been serving God since l was a little girl and l felt that God, what could l have done so wrong (you know)?

I cried so many nights, thinking that God, who is going to take care of my family, who is going to take care of my children?

One night, l called my husband crying that “my hair is all falling off, my nails are black, l just can’t deal with this anymore; has God forgotten me?” I will never forget what my husband said.

He said, “there is life on your inside. So, don’t keep your eyes on what you see. Your hair, your nails, those will grow back but as long as the life of Christ is on your inside, greater is He that is inside me, than He that is in the World.” And that changed my mind-set.

I had prayed for God to heal me without going for radiation and chemotherapy, l said God, this is too painful, l don’t want to go through this type of process and God reminded me of Naaman in 2 Kings 5.

Naaman asked God, “can’t the prophet just wave his hand for me to be healed? l don’t want to go to some dirty river.” God said “l will heal you, you don’t get to choose your method of healing.”

God chooses the way. With the Blind men, one He healed instantly, the other He healed in stages and it made me really learn to trust God and just know that He is working miraculously.

I decided l won’t waste my time crying about been ill, l said “l would join the Choir while l am here.” Everyday, whenever they had rehearsals, I would come and sing with them. They never knew l had a situation because l chose not to sit down and mourn, but l will be in the House of the Lord.

One Sunday l remember standing on this same stage while l was doing chemotherapy, ministering “l am standing here, only because You made a way.”

God is just so awesome and l remember that before every chemotherapy treatment, we will take Holy Communion, my mother has been amazing, her strength, l don’t know how she gets it.

For those of you single, please marry a God fearing partner, it helps you when you are going through this type of storms. My husband is amazing.

I made a vow that every single treatment, l will dress up like l was going to a party. I would make up and they would always ask me, where are you going and l will say, just here.

I wanted to let the enemy know that “no power of hell, no scheme of men, can ever pluck me from His hands, till He returns or calls me home, here in the Power of Christ l stand”.

God is awesome, through this situation, so many people have come to know the Lord, so many people have asked, “how did you do it?” It is not my strength, even the doctors, Pastor and his wife have been praying, they have been so wonderful.

They kept asking, how did you have this strength? I was not a star patient, the Star is the Unlimited God, the one that sits in the Heaven and the Earth at the same time, the One that never changes.